Today , Whole day rot at home. This few days did not eat much . Today .. really did not eat anything.. I don't know what I'm doing now . I don't know what to do either ..

Read someone blog .. She seem to be happy .. That great.. But still she really hurting me too..
To her , This few days really they pei-ing me . That why I post that.. You are there with your stead them , or someone that I don't like .. How would I feel? I have enough le.. I really can't take it much .. You hurt me too just like others.. I don't know what to do anymore.. I really just wanted to end my life . It pointless to stay.. Really pointless .. Each day , I'm crying like a baby .. Each day , I kept thinking .. Non stop.. I've been suffering .. Who know? No one.. What I want , I can't have it anymore.. I really wish one day , I'm not here . I'm gone . That will be great.. I really wish that day but just cause of you I really can't put you down.. Can't let you off.. But it just leave by it own.. You prove to me what is sister .. But you show me what hurt.. Once again .. I don't know you anymore.. I don't know .. I don't know who say de is truth or lies.. It simply look so fake.. What am I to you now? .. I treating you as stranger? .. I said le.. Whatever I did I have my reason to it.. Believe or not I can't help.. It a person choice , It's a trust between one another , It's a reliable .. All this .. Whatever you've said , It hurt me lots .. I had more than enough . You not feeling well , So do I.. I had been think .. Who can I have.. Who can be the one there for me .. Who really love me lots.. I'm down.. I just don't show my weak side to you cause I'm strong in your heart.. That why I don't really tell you lots of things .. I see you happy , I don't want to ruin your day.. I just wan you and him and others happy .. Anything that can make you all happy I will do it , Even it needed my life , Cause you all are precious to me.. My one and only..

To that boy .. Stop loving me as you choose the path to go.. The path which lead you out of my heart.. You still love me but please just stop.. Although I still want the love from you but it seem that .. You suit her.. She's pretty , kind , care and can always accompany you..I'm not good enough , You don't have to care about me anymore .. No more burden .. No more hurts.. Each day living in a happy life ..Whatever I'm doing , don't bother.. I want you to forget about me.. All those pain and hurt .. I shall take it for you.. That all I can do for you .. I really don't know le.. We stead on 28 of June .. Broke on 10 of August , In the midnight.. We last for 1 month 5 and a half day.. I though we could last.. I really wanted to changed for you but it just too late.. All just gone .. All of a sudden.. But thanks for everything you did for me.. Goodbye.. Hope you find a better girl .. Much more better then me..

Loving someone is easy .. But sometime it suffer.. Caring for someone , End up it hurting .. Love , care to whoever .. It will just hurt.. Fate .. My fate is to let me suffer .. Wanting someone to forget you .. Hurt alot.. And giving blessing.. Asking someone to help care of a person.. Is just like giving all in.. and left nothing inside.. I'm feeling all those now.. How long could I be living.. Or how long could I stand all this.. Tears all over.. Hurt inside.. I'm living in darkness.. Full of pain .. No Sun .. No rainbow .. Not even a single light shining .. A total darkness.. I fate to live in this kind of world bah.. I'm okay with this life.. If living in this life can make all of them happy , I willing to .. I won't reject..