Another post .. Now is 2.51 .. And I'm still shag & sad.. What can I do for him .. I asking myself .. I can't answer .. Cause I only make it more worst.. Wanted to go down pei him as he is alone but I don't dare.. Lots of negative thoughts came to me.. I may look fine .. But all were just fake smile to cover .. No one know .. I cried .. So what? No one care .. Not even him .. He no mood now what to do ? .. I really want do something for him .. Who he like , Why he no mood all this question I wanted to ask but he won't answer to it .. I'm a burden to him ?.. I'm just making more trouble for him ? .. I'm just staring at the com , audi .. Just keep seeing the room .. Seeing everything that he is doing .. I'm a retard .. I asked Deric .. Why others can have a relationship and not me .. Why I can't just have the things I want when no matter how hard I try , how hard I do .. I thought whatever a person do , it will pay back .. but not to me .. It just so unfair .. God , why can't you just help me .. I willing to do anything for it .. But whatever I do it useless.. Why god.. It really unfair .. I really hope I was not born out .. I really hope that I was not in that group so less trouble for him.. Mia ? .. Again ? .. Should I ? .. Am I going to let people know I am giving up but actually I'm not ? .. Thinking and crying now.. All alone..I'm a total failure..Shall end here..

Boy.. You will never know how it feel.. You are being loved.. Cheer up alright.. Don't always no mood.. Learn to smile more.. Take care yourselvese too .. I miss you & I love you .. 22th will always be remembered in my heart always.. Thanks for caring me .. I appreciate it ..really .. lots..
I will just leave secretly ..I'm Sorry Too..